When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

[Pre-chorus:]
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

[Chorus:]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you,
I love the things that you do

[Pre-chorus]

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do, I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus:]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

Well, this is the only one of Avril Lavigne that make me so sad.. 

Avril's songs are full band, but this song, is really make me sad..

Tears almost fall down.. I miss you..

Don't know how much song is written here already..

to express what I feel.. and it's still not enough..

It's been a long time i can't reach you..

and i don't have confidence to see you, talk to you, even know a news about you..

So hard, in one side I really miss you,

in other side I don't have any confidence to meet you.. at all..

I afraid, so so..

You're not just a love for me,

you're not just a story that come to my life..

it isn't 'just' a part.. even no one know about it..

no one know, but it's a big part in my heart..

Someday..

that maybe never come,

PS. I Miss You

Designer is also a live to life a live

RI tried my best n i give up.,

Can't sleep., don't know why.,

Mgkn pengaruh capucino yg kuminum jam 9 tdi., 

mgkn pengaruh iga yg prtama x kumakan seumur hidupku,

mgkn jg pengaruh dengan siapa gw makan iga hari ini., 

Mgkn memang belakangan gw smakin sulit tidur, dan hari ini yg terparah.,

It's 1 a.m. -.-!!!!!

N tomorow is work day.,

Tp kurasa bkn krn kopi, coz kopi selama ini membuat gw tenang, dan tenang itu bikin ngantuk., 

N so u decided to write saja lah.,

Drpd bolak balek badan mulu di kasur., haha

Ada sebuah kisah, yg dr senin lalu ingin kubagikan., but ya., i'm quite lazy lately for writing n typing,, (belakangan kebanyakan hanya copas lirik lagu yg sdg gw dengar dan comment)..

It's about my job.,

Well., i never introduce my job in this blog ya.,

Perkenalkan., i'm a designer,, yeeeyy.,

Graphic designer., spesialisnya.,

Since 2011, n i never join any design class (still in my dream)..

I just learn from friends, books ( terbanyak ), internet, cd module and else.,

Otodidak., 

Why i decide to focus in design? 

Bukan di hal dimana gw lulus as mahasiswa terbaik k2 se-jurusan kampus., (pamer sdikit.. :p)

A lot of reason., but lately i 'REALIZE' one thing that i do know from the beginning and just realize more today.,

Akhir2 ini, gw dipertemukan ke bbrp costumer yang membuat gw really enjoy my job.,

As example.,

customer yg jual kue2 kering dan buka warung makanan kecil,

Hei girl., how much u can earn from this small stand?

Well., i learn a lot., and it can't be compare with money., :)

My customer is a strong woman.,

She got divorce with her husband., fight alone for her two sweet girls.,

And her youngest daughter terkena diabetes., setiap hari mesti disuntik insulin 3x sehari., 

He just 11 years old..

When she told me her story., hati gw pilu.,

Bagaimana pahitnya pernikahannya, perceraiannya, sakit anaknya., airmata dan doa setiap tengah malam., berjalan n berjuang sndiri di kota ini..

But this woman., in all the bitterness that she face., she still smile and laugh with me., i found a warmth in our relationship., :)

Seperti nambah 1 cc baru., 

N she is very happy with my design.,

Its always be my biggest happiness ., ;)

Work, friendship, life's lesson.,

Beautiful ya? (:

Note : i make a canvas for her as a gift, n a happy face is enough already as a payment for that canvas..

Another one, prewedding album.,

It's a fun album ever.,

We talk n discuss a lot about the theme of the picture..

It's a crazy album at all., hahaha

We put a shark, dino, and speech bubblr in the album.,

And so, this is the first prewedding album that i ever see n made which is full of laugh, sweet and crazy things.,

Well., i am happy for u two., happy wedding n hope ur wedding's story will be full of happiness n laugh as the album is., :)

And still., their happiness can't be bought by money., and the payment is enough for me., 

I also give them a frame as gift ., and when i see the bride's face., dy spt terharu ampe mau nangis gt., n raut mukanya indah sx., XD

Well, i'm happy coz 'my message' sptnya tersampaikan., :D

This is me, a designer., :)

I don't say that money is not important.,

Who will work if they don't get payment?

Everything maybe need money, but money isn't everything.,

N belajar 'kecukupan' itu penting, selain belajar untuk 'kaya' 

Honestly, gw takut terjebak dalam uang.,

I know that i'm a woman yang jika hatiku sudah fokus dan terikat pd satu hal, i will 'all in'

Dangerous one., n sangat tdk baik jika hati kita terikat pd materi., :)

Tp bukan berarti tu menjadi alasan untuk tdk bekerja keras dan work more ya., 

Keep work hard, but also keep our heart to the right track., ^^

N last monday., ada temen ku yg mendadak bbm.,

Gw pernah share yearbook yg pernah kita buat ke dy.,

N i really shock on what she requested to me.,

Cc itu ask me to make a memoriar book of adiknya yg pass away bbrp waktu lalu., T___T

So sad ya., adiknya baru 30thn, dulu sekelas dg cc ku..

Album itu akan diberikan ke anak adiknya yg masi berumur satu tahun.,

Dan di depan diminta dituliskan,

"_________ (nama anaknya), sorry mommy ga bisa temani kamu sampai dewasa"

Pas baca bbmnya, hatiku pilu sekali, n ga terasa mata gw uda basah., T__T

Mana dp cc itu sedih sekali.,

Dpnya dlm bhs inggris yg artinya kira2 bgini : jika setiap airmata yg kuteteskan bs membangun jalan ke surga, mgkn aku sudah sampai disurga untuk menjemputmu pulang.,

T_____T

Haizz., gw sedih sx.,

N i promise to my self., i will do my best for the design., T______T

These experiences are teaching me that sometimes designer job isn't only design and create a beautiful art,

But, put the real 'art' on the design., put the 'life', put the 'feeling' put the 'story', put the 'memories'., and also a chance to spread ....... (if u know what i means., kok jd kaya 9gags ya., hahhahaha xD)

Hope it always remind readers and me to put ours heart in everything we do.,

As the bible say,

 "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, (Colossians 3:23 NIV) "

And a book of Arvan Pradiansyah : "I Love Monday" that also influence me n my job today., 

Thanks sir for ur words, and for the man who gave me that book on my bday before .. :D

Enjoy the share ! ^^

How Could You - Kamasean

Kau datang sekejap membawa harapan
Lalu kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Kini ku tenggelam dalam tangisku
Bagaimana ku relakan yang telah jadi milikku

You’re the one who show me what’s love
Then take it all away (huu baby)
You’re the one who reassemble all my broken heart
And break it all over again (break it all over again)

(Your smile) gives me life then it kills me
(Your eyes) show me hopes then they tear me
Your love flied my high away then it throws me back down hardly
How could you make me say I love you, I love you

Kini ku mengerti cinta takkan bisa dipaksa
(Ku tetap menanti dirimu)
Ku tak peduli kata mereka asal kau milikku
Bagaimana ku relakan yang telah jadi milikku

You’re the one who show me what’s love
Then take it all away (huu baby)
You’re the one who reassemble all my broken heart
And break it all over again (break it all over again)

(Your smile) gives me life then it kills me
(Your eyes) show me hopes then they tear me
Your love flied my high away then it throws me back down hardly
How could you make me say I love you

… (you’re the queen of my heart, yeah right)
You said you love me but I know that’s all a lie you say
…
How could you break my heart

You’re the one who show me what’s love
Then take it all away (huu)
You’re the one who reassemble all my broken heart
And break it all over again

(Your smile gives me life) then it kills me
(Your eyes show me hopes) then they tear me
Your love flied my high away then it throws me back down hardly
How could you make me say (I love you)
All this time you’ve made myself say (I love you)
And another time I realize all those days I don’t love you

(How could you make me say I love you
How could you
How could you make me say I love you
How could you)

Finally i found the title of this song., 

U know? The first time i listened this song in my radio's car, i just crying.,

Babycry., n i know why., :)

'I love you' isn't a easy word to say., 

Realize it lately ., :D

The fence.

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. 
His father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, 
he must hammer a nail into the fence.

 The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. 
Over the next few weeks as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily, 
gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the boy didn’t lose his temper at all. 
He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper. 
The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. 
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. 
He said “you have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. 
The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.
” You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. 
It won’t matter how many times you say I’m sorry, the wound is still there. 
Make sure you control your temper the next time you are tempted to say something you will regret later.

well, i have heard this story before. Once at 2006, but I do remember this story until now.

The woman who tell this story, idk where she is now, but I remember her.

Actually, after I grew up, i don't really agree with this illustration.

Human is human. We are growing.

Sometimes, we heal, 

sometimes, we get hurt, 

Sometimes, we forget that we hurt, and sometimes we forget that we got hurt,

Sometimes, we remember, moments in our life.

We can't erase, what happened in our life, happiness and sadness.

Maybe this is what this illustration called 'scar'.

But even scar, it isn't hurt anymore.

When it's still hurt, it's means that we are not healed yet.

Or maybe, we are still in healing. :D

Btw, it's still a nice story. It always teach me to be careful in each words I say.

Coz, i am a woman that has a big room to remember what people ever said to me (deep to my heart).

I ever said, be careful on what u said on me, what do u said to me.

I don't threaten anyone, but that's me. :)

It's hard to erase something that u has keep it in your heart.

and I do appreciate what people said ( if it's precious for me :p)

Eternity

Close your eyes so you don't fear them

They don't need to see you cry

I can't promise I will heal you

But if you want to I will try

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Someone said the truth will out

I believe without a doubt, in you

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity...

For eternity

Yesterday when you were walking

We talked about your mum and dad

What they did that made you happy

What they did that made you sad

We sat and watched the sun go down

Picked a star before we lost the moon

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you gave me what I need

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity...

For eternity

For eternity

I'll sing this somber serenade

The past is done

We've been betrayed

It's true

Youth is wasted on the young

Before you know it's come and gone to soon

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I hope you find your freedom

For eternity

You were there for summer dreaming

And you are a friend indeed

And I know you'll find your freedom

Eventually

For eternity

For eternity

I'm still Loving You - Shiga Lin

When I close my eyes I think of you
And the times we've had been through 
Even though we're far apart right now

I remember back when you were here with me
How you've made my world complete
But now I'm left alone

We talked about love and hope
Wishing we could start a life our own
I wish that I could live without you

# Why did you tear my heart apart
You said you'd love me from the start
All those painful things you've put me through
But I'm still loving you

I've tried to give my best to you
I don't deserve the things you do
Everything has gone to memories
I just wish I knew the truth behind the lies.



PS.
just fall in love with her voice and the lyrics..
It's touching.. :)
you did it good.. d( ' o ' )b
well, i'm still that kind of girl ya,. hahaha.. :D

Last Kiss - Taylor Swift

I still remember the look on your face

Lit through the darkness at 1:58

The words that you whispered for just us to know

You told me you loved me so why did you go away, go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane

That July 9th the beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes

All that I know is I don't know

How to be something you'd miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you're showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in

I'm not much for dancing but for you I did

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes

All that I know is I don't know

How to be something you'd miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips, ohh

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe

And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day

And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed

We can plan for a change in weather and time

I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes

All that I know is I don't know

How to be something you'd miss

I never thought we'd have our last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips

Forever the name on my lips, just like our last kiss

Her voice is very nice, and the music.. I can feel the feeling of this song from them..

And it bring me far away.. 

Nice song Swift.. 

You should listening to this song, :)

How Can I Not Love You

Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together

Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other

Must be strong,
And we must let go
Cannot say
What our hearts must know
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

Cannot dream
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments

Cannot feel
How we feel
Must pretend it's over

Must be brave,
And we must go on
Must not say,
What we've known all along

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone
How can I not love you..

[[Musical Interlude]]

Must be brave,
And we must be strong
Cannot say,
What we've known all along.

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you
Here in my arms

How does one walks away
From all the memories
How do I not miss you
When you are gone

How can I not love you..
When you are you gone.

PS. touching song.. 
melow.com . . >.<

很爱很爱你 - Rene Liu

想为你做件事让你更快乐的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求时间趁着你不注意的时候
悄悄地把这种子酿成果实
我想她的确是更适合你的女子
我太不够温柔优雅成熟懂事
如果我退回到好朋友的位置
你也就不再需要为难成这样子
很爱很爱 你所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱 你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
看着她走向你那幅画面多美丽
如果我会哭泣也是因为欢喜
地球上两个人能相遇不容易
做不成你的情人我仍感激
很爱很爱你 所以愿意不牵绊你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
啦...啦...啦...
啦...啦...啦...
很爱很爱你 所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
很爱很爱你 所以愿意不牵绊你
飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你 只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
很爱很爱你 所以愿意舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你 只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心
很爱很爱你 所以愿意不牵绊你
飞向幸福的地方去
很爱很爱你 只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心

somehow, i love this song, an old song already,,
but still warmth and sweet.. n it's playing in my heart, lately.. ^^