Valuable - TIME

It's May... \( 'o' )/
It was quite hard month on April.. :)
But, this too will pass.. and it was pass..
But, not with this storm.. it isn't pass yet..
but, I'm learning..
paling tidak, i'm thinking,.
Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day..
in this case month.. haha..

Suatu saat di bulan April,
gw berada di titik yg cukup rendah,
dan semua pikiran negatif mendatangiku,
krn gw mem-BUKA kesempatan tsb..
I know, tdk semua hal tsb benar,
krn sudah bercampur dg kesedihan, praduga2, kekesalan dsb..
but, there is something good, n i'm learning..

I ask my self,
How much valuable am I? How much important me?
Seberapa kita berharga bagi seseorang, tkadang dilihat dr seberapa orang 'menghargai' kita,
dan seberapa penting kita bagi seseorang, dilihat dari seberapa orang tersebut 'mementingkan' kita,
Baiklah, itu tidak selamanya benar,
but sometimes, it is.. and that were what i am thinking..
and of course, i got a low score.. :)
Kukira pikiranku cukup mengerti tentang teori kasih..
tp pikiranku pun bertanya..

I know it's a BIG love, gw tidak meragukannya sedikitpun.. sedikitpun tidak
but,. from what happened . .
. . . .
i can't find a right word.. hee.. :)

I got this quotes, from my friend :

The greatest gift you can give to someone is your time,
because when you give your time,
you're giving a portion of your life that you'll never get back
You can give without loving,
but you can't loving without giving..


Time, kupikir gw membutuhkan itu, and I ask for that..
But, pikiranku pun berkelanjutan..

Apakah Tuhanku pun menanyakan yang sama?
Sudahkah gw memberikan waktu, yg kusediakan KHUSUS, hanya UNTUKNYA?
Gw merasakan sedikit dari apa yg mungkin God rasakan, terhadap diriku..
I'm disappointed,, with my self..

Dan ketika gw mengatakan,
gw mengasihi keluargaku, mom and all..
Seberapa banyak gw pun memberi waktu untuk mereka?
Itu tamparan yg cukup kuat,, untuk ku..
yang cukup membuat ku sadar,
tentang diriku sendiri.. tentang perasaan dan fakta..


It's a part of what I want to share,
there are some parts, but I think, i should stop..
It's messing here, and I think I will not continue of this stories..