Sunshine

You are my sunshine
my only sunshine 
you make me happy 
when skies are grey

You'll never know dear 
how much I love you 
please don't take my sunshine away

The other night dear 
as I laid sleeping 
I dreamed I held you by my side
When I awoke dear 
I was mistaken and 
I hung my head and cry

You are my sunshine...
You told me once dear 
you really loved me a
nd no one else could come between
But now you've left me 
and you love another a
nd you have shatered all my dreams

You are my sunshine...
I'll always love you 
and make you happy 
if you will only say the same
But if you leave me 
to love another you'll regret it all some day

You are my sunshine...
Please don't take my sunshine away
I wrote you in my skripsi., :)
About sunshine, you ., us.,
N i think u didn't notice it at that day., Dec 3rd 2012..
just think that maybe it's better for u too.,

So it wouldn't make u guilty or something like that.,
N so this blog too., don't know what u feel when u read it.,

such a years of writing ., i did feel shy.,
like a tomatoes when u told me that u read these.. N sad., and happy, and angry..else., so many things.,
Coz i wrote many things,
and silence's still .. You., cheater.,
Miss my sunhine., warmth, sweetheart, shiny., lovely,, cute.,
Caring, heart minded.,
Where can be found again?
Along the day., with works, crowded things,
But in the end of this day,
I hear this song nowhere n so I sing it., in silence.,

kambuh lagi, di tengah malam..

kapankah semua ini akan berakhir?
kupikir, aku sudah tidak dapat menahannya lebih jauh lagi..

kepedihan dan rasa sakit ini,
berapa lama lagi harus kupendam,
harus berapa lama lagi kupilah, kupikirkan,
kucoba untuk terima,,
ketika aku belajar mengerti, bahwa ini bukan kehendakmu,
namun perih tak mau pergi, luka tak mau sembuh..

andai bisa kukatakan, aku benci padamu,
andai bisa kulemparkan seluruh yang telah kurasakan
airmata yang mengalir, yang tiada berujung..
supaya kau tau, betapa aku menyayangimu..

taukah kau?
aku menyayangimu,
my cheater,kamu curang, selalu curang..
mencuri semua yang kumiliki..
mengambil semua perasaan,
sampai membuat aku tak berdaya..
aku tanpa perasaan..

dan aku si bodoh,
yang mengijinkan semua diambil dariku..
yang dengan bodohnya tersakiti,
yang dengan bodohnya berdiam,
tanpa tuduhan, tanpa amarah..
dan membiarkan semua itu bergaung di dalamku..

kenapa semua ini terjadi?
yang kutau adalah sebuah jawaban pahit,,
'itu karena dirimu sendiri.. '